On losing Jamie:
That has been the hardest thing. He was a porn legend, and a scholar on the other hand. When I met him he was still working. I said, “I can live with a porn legend, but I can’t live with a porn actor.” All of the time that I was with him, I felt like he was there for convenience. I never realized how much he loved me. I didn’t realize until recently that he was my anchor.
