I mentioned adoption to my husband and he suggested surrogacy. He really wanted a child with his own blood and features. I rejected surrogacy, as I couldn’t stand the idea of another woman carrying my child—I’d die of envy. I wanted to experience the joy that comes with every moment of pregnancy. I know that sounds selfish, but I didn’t care. I wanted what most women get to have. We decided to discuss adoption again in the future if we could not have a child of our own.
