I’d gone through 42 years of life blindfolded, and this diagnosis was the first time anyone had lifted the cloth from my eyes long enough for me to see myself as I really was, and, most importantly, to catch a glimpse of a solution to this problem that had ruined just about every part of my life from the time I was 16 years old and it first reared its ugly head.
People with impulse control issues tend, among all of their other charming behaviors, to overeat. This is not a surprise. Eating right requires control. Self-control. Borderlines are notoriously lacking in this skill. Eating right also requires mastery over one’s emotions, if you are an emotional eater as so many of us are. It is no surprise, then, that Borderlines like me have higher rates of eating disorders and obesity than the rest of the population. Yes, we’re a lovely bunch, aren’t we?